More of the Same

After I told "G" that I finally liked her, I got to the point where I would still think about her constantly. I don't know why. So I (temporarily, anyway...) took her number out of my phone, deleted all the texts, hid all the photos of her and I on Facebook (that took a minute...) and unfollowed her as well. Am I upset? Am I bummed? Disappointed? Brokenhearted? No to all. I am REALLY wanting to move on from her, and quickly. She's still my friend, she's an amazing wonderful person, but not the one for me.

I signed up for Christian Mingle, gosh, 3 or 4 years ago maybe, after my ex and I broke up. I had an email from someone that I had to pay to read, so I gave Christian mingle 30 dollars of my hard-earned retail money, to read one dang email. Hope it's worth it! In my minds wanderings of putting together my thoughts of the past week, I came up with this, and I wrote it on my lunch break yesterday (the beginning is similar to "All My Life" from Foo Fighters) And I also just wrote down whatever came to mind, while watching Forrest Gump, eating, and talking w/coworkers on my lunch break. I'm surprised it flowed as well as it did.

All my life Been searching for the one Always come back empty Sometimes I wonder if I'll ever find the one God has set aside for me Patience The older I get The more I realize it takes patience Trusting Leaning not on my own understanding Inevitable Knowing You know what's best for me And in Your timing You will make everything new And erase every wrong that's been done And reverse every heartache I've ever had Live in forever hope But also know I'm not ready yet So many things in life I need to work on To be the man You need me to be And to be the man she needs me to be as well