Dear Grace

Dear Grace,

It's been one whole year since we last talked. It's all me. I never wanted to like you anything beyond friendship to begin with. And after 2 whole years after you nicely let me down, I was still constantly thinking about you, I had to move on. It was nothing you did.

I haven't removed you from my Instagram followers. Selfishly I guess, I want you to see what my life is like now, as busy and crazy and chaotic and fun as it is.

I never wanted to have feelings for you, trust me, I tried to fight it, prayed about it, when I get to heaven if I could ask God one question, it would be why did I like you so much knowing it wasn't mutual?

I would say I've completely moved on, but seeing that I'm typing this one year later, maybe I haven't??

You're an amazing person, one of the, if not the most godliest women I've ever met, which may be what I initially saw in you? I made an effort back in the fall to try and reach out to you again, but after a week I decided to cancel it and completely move on.

You will never know this, but there was a handful of times I would go through all of your photos on facebook. Infatuated, obsessed, it was wrong.

I hope you're doing well without me in your life, I never wanted it to come to this. I tend too much to dwell on my past and if I could ever truly move on from you I felt like I had to do what I had to do.

Do I miss you? Yes and no. I do miss keeping you updated on my life and would like to think, that, even after one year ago when I last heard from you even though I still tried to keep in touch, but honestly, after I told you how I felt and your response, our friendship was never the same. And no. I can't keep dwelling on someone when the feelings weren't mutual.

Thankful for the handful of years you were in my life and for the friendship we had, but I've moved on. Once and for all.
Your brother,
Steve