Life Doesn't Always Go As Planned

After a brief hiatus and vowing I would never blog again, well, don't say "never", just needed some time off and reflecting on what really needs to get shared. I've done a lot of thinking on my life lately, and I did post about this several years ago, but it seems like my life has always been a bit behind schedule, and I'm kind of in a funk right now. I know what I want to do with my life, I've just never known how to achieve those goals and it always feels like something has been holding me back. I've also felt like I have all this unused potential and even at 32 I'm still trying to find my skills and what I'm good at.

I've had a love affair of cars my entire life. But I am very mechanically inclined and am too stubborn and willing to learn, and hearing the technology updates itself every 2 years would just be that much more to learn. I want to do something in the automotive field, but what excatly, aside from working on them or selling them, I don't know.

I love to write (obviously) God has blessed me with an ability to make words flow and for people to understand. It just came naturally to me. I've never gotten paid to write. If I could, oh man, well I wouldn't be typing this from my parents' computer at their house.

I love music. I love to talk (really...?) and I love to talk about music. Radio would be a fun path to choose as well. Plus I've been told I have a face for radio. I think I could easily to traffic reports because, I mean, how hard can that be? Looking out, at all the roadways in Dallas, there's either construction or a wreck, you're most likely stuck in traffic.

I thought long and hard about career choices. Obviously my dream job is to be in NASCAR somehow. I just feel I'm in the wrong part of the country and I can't afford to pack up and move to North Carolina and if it doesn't work out to where I don't find anything, would be a wasted effort.

I just thought at this point in my life I would have found some stability. Life doesn't always work out how you want it to but I know it's all in God's hands and it's up to me to find His will for me life. And I know that there will be some beautiful, not-as-young-as-I-hoped because I'm getting older, woman just waiting for me when everything in my life takes shape.

If I would have cared more about school when I was younger I don't think I would be in this situation now, but it's all part of the growing progress. But I also look at how many of my friends have had such a difficult time finding jobs AFTER graduating college, I guess I'm thankful to have found steady, even though not-well-paid employment w/out having a degree to fall back on. I still like to think I'll be successful in this world.

Hang w/me folks, it's gonna be a bumpy emotional ride, but it'll be so worth it in the end!