Numb To It All

Saturday the woman (why do I still refer to 28-year-olds as "girls"?) Let me down. She was nice about it, but naturally I was bummed about it. I've liked her off-and-on for the past year. So last night my mind was wandering around 2AM and I wrote this down, just getting EVERYTHING out in the open. This is what came out.

Waited 3 years to have my eyes fixed on someone Fought myself for a year Going back and forth Knowing they were out of my league Still trying to keep my hopes up All for not Knew I was in over my head This time around Naturally bummed for a while But eventually numb to it all All I've ever known outcome always remains the same Tried to be the nice guy And do all the right things But you were oblivious Should have been my first sign Still I tried Tried to move on and just be friends Feelings came back stronger Than ever Still fighting it Till you let me down nicely Dont know what I have to do Part of me wants to Completely give up and cry God it's hard to have faith When this is all I've ever known How much more of this can I take? There is no heartache no bitterness no pain Only wish for once feelings were Always the case Until then outcome remains the same My fault for going in Over my head Still I tried I took a chance I'm to the point now I'm numb to it all I'm done with it all