That Awkward Moment..

I have been attending some sort of college/singles-aged Bible study on Thursday nights since...college. It's hard for someone at my point of life (mid-30s single) to plug in somewhere with people my age, because most people my age are, well, married. I am obviously not (and may not ever...) I had been friends with one particular female for 5 or 6 years. I had never considered her anything beyond friendship. Then a couple weeks ago, things got REALLY awkward. I had been considering moving on from Thursday night group because, well, there comes a time in life where you have to move away from things. This particular female sent me a facebook message out of the blue saying that she wasn't interested in anyone, wasn't looking for anyone at the moment, and didn't know if I was interested (I wasn't...) and that it wasn't mutual. Ok. Thanks for letting me know that. I was 10 years older than her, I hadn't given her a second thought during the week. The last time I attended Thursday night Bible study I got her number so I could keep in touch with her, since I always did enjoy at least talking to her. Bad idea.

I sent a text not long after all this unfolded trying to make 100% sure that I had zero interest in her. But then I made it even more awkward. One wrong word in a sentence can make things that much more awkward. I said, I had, in fact, been interested in someone off-and-on all year, but I kept quiet about you. Oops. I meant to say, I kept quiet about it. Again, one wrong word can change an entire sentence to make it sound like nothing you initially meant to say.

I noticed she had since unfriended me on Facebook. Ok? Good riddance? We'll see each other in heaven, but if you no longer want to remain friends, Bye Felicia. I never intended for this to lead in anything beyond friendship, I apologize for whatever I may have done or said, you're a very sweet person and I WAS thankful for your friendship, but with that being said, enjoy your life, you'll never hear from me again. I'll leave you alone from here on out.

And with that, it's finally time for me to stop hanging around kids 19-22 (roughly...) I don't want to force something that isn't there.